Marilyn Lundberg
Published: 2018-05-22
Total Pages: 250
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If you have suffered trauma due to war, an accident, illness, abuse, or anything else, I am quite certain your trauma details will be different from mine, yet many of our symptoms may be surprisingly similar. For eighteen years of my life, I dealt with harm daily. I suffered over forty years with a substantial assortment of trauma related manifestations. I had no understanding of what was wrong with me, since most of my pain was lost in a fog of forgetfulness. I personally suffered from the following disorders: Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder which for me included: flashbacks, trauma triggers, body memories, nightmares/night terrors, frightening thoughts, avoidance of thoughts and feelings related to the trauma, easily startled, feeling tense or on edge, difficulty sleeping, memory problems, negative thoughts about myself or the world, distorted feelings like guilt or blame. Social Anxiety Disorder Generalized Anxiety Disorder Major Depression Suicidal thoughts Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) Panic Attacks Anorexia Depersonalization/Derealization Agoraphobia Essential tremor Endometriosis Addiction to a doctor prescribed drug I suffered from 77 of the 99 after-effects of sexual abuse Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, food and environmental allergies The devastation of the above problems began when I was a child and lasted until I was in my mid-forties. I know my story sounds bleak thus far but don't be discouraged. Peace, laughter, joy and happiness eventually came my way. My personal traumas came from three different long-term sources. Incest was the first form of trauma which resulted from two family members. The second area of harm to me was due to faulty care and nurturing from a mentally ill parent. Lastly, bullying occurred at school during my formative years and affected me greatly. All three areas of abuse proceeded to bring on the above disorders within me. PTSD, depression, anxiety and all the other disorders can come from a myriad of situations. If you have any of the disorders that I mentioned, this book can and will definitely help you no matter how you were harmed. My book carefully lays out the path I took so you can feel better quickly. I think in my situation, my abusers thought that their hidden dirty secrets would never be remembered by me but that was incorrect. All their sins were carefully recorded in my flashbacks, nightmares, night terrors, body memories and trauma triggers. The actual events were repressed for decades, but my body never forgot. My autobiography is carefully written to limit my discussion regarding the actions of my abusers for my sake, as well as yours. I do not want to cause you any additional harm. My story also concentrates on the seen and unseen symptoms of the traumas. The hardships that I experienced caused devastating results to my mind as well as my body. Throughout my life I thought I was crazy and alone with all my difficulties, but I was wrong. There are currently so many people in the world fighting similar emotional battles. I have chosen to be as transparent as possible, in describing all the after-effects that came to me because of years of trauma. I want to share my private personal story with you, so that you can quickly heal and mend any brokenness you are currently dealing with. My journey was agonizing, but my healing has been exhilarating. No matter how deeply you are traumatized now, I know my story will accelerate your quest to find healing and freedom from your dilemmas. The bonus is that joy, peace and happiness is out there for everyone!